DEE MADE ME DO IT! :)
- ACCENT CHALLENGE.
- Your name and username.
- Where you’re from.
- Pronounce the following words: Aunt, Roof, Route, Theater, Iron, Salmon, Caramel, Fire, Water, New Orleans, Pecan, Both, Again, Probably, Alabama, Lawyer, Coupon, Mayonnaise, Pajamas, Caught, Naturally, Aluminium, GIF, Tumblr, Crackerjack, Doorknob, Envelope, GPOY.
- What is it called when you throw toilet paper on a house? What is a bubbly carbonated drink called?
- What’s the bug, that when you touch it, it curls into a ball?
- What do you say to address a group of people?
- What do you call the kind of spider that has an oval-shaped body and extremely long legs?
- Be a wizard or a vampire?
- How old are you?
- Is it cold where you are?
- What is your favorite color?
- What color are your eyes?
- Do you have freckles?
- When is your birthday?
- What was the last thing you drank?
- Would you rather: Have a million dollars or a million friends? Eat a taco or a quesadilla? Be a shark or an elephant?
- Do you speak a second language? Say something in it.
- What do you call gym shoes?
- What do you call your grandparents?
- What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket?
- What is the thing you change the TV channel with?
- Choose a book and read a passage from it. Do you think you have an accent?
- Do you know anyone on Tumblr in real life? End audio post by saying any THREE words you want.
in a middle of a room
in a middle of a room
stands a suicide
sniffing a Paper rose
smiling to a self
“somewhere it is Spring and sometimes
people are in real:imagine
somewhere real flowers,but
I can’t imagine real flowers for if I
could,they would somehow
not Be real”
(so he smiles
smiling)”but I will not
everywhere be real to
you in a moment”
The is blond
with small hands
“& everything is easier
than I had guessed everything would
be;even remembering the way who
looked at whom first,anyhow dancing”
(a moon swims out of a cloud
a clock strikes midnight
a finger pulls a trigger
a bird flies into a mirror)
Going going gone
new phone on the way but of course it has to be Friday when the order is started and it’ll take 2-5 business days from when it’s completed… so some time next week I will have a phone again. Meanwhile my already disconnected feeling is greater and greater. I am waiting for the mail. If my check is here today I am spending a majority of it on me, I don’t care if it’s irresponsible and selfish, it’s happening. I am trying to figure out my life and I’m drawing a blank on how to do so. I can’t call and make doctors appointments without a phone, I’ve lost most of my doctors numbers with my phone. I am in a state of panic over such a material thing it’s insane. I am out of touch with Paulette who may be sending the men in white coats to pick me up any moment now.. And who could blame her? I’m so lonely it’s driving me insane… and yet I look at the shams of relationships around me and I’m sure I’d be more lonely in something like that than I am where I’m at. I want to start packing up my stuff and getting rid of a lot of it but I have no means to donate the things I want to get rid of that don’t fit me anymore/are perfectly good etc… so here I sit in a mess of a room… going ever more crazy… thinking of the photo Scott drew for us of Suicide in a lonely room… that poem haunted me from the day I had to read it in middle school.. I have a feeling that some day… no matter that I’m fighting it with all my soul… it’s how I’m fated to go.
I want to get out and go somewhere loud (like Karaoke) tonight, but realizing that with no phone I have no way of calling people to get a ride.
So here I sit.
Things that make me happy…
Things that make me happy include:
Balloons
TaeKwon Do
My brother
My Nieces
My Nephews
My friends
books
Crocheting
Leather
Motorcycles
puzzles
laughing
theater
comfy clothes
daisies
Dee’s art
monkeys
Washington…
So I need a plan… it’s been forming for weeks now, but this is where I start the official public version. My lease is up on the last day of June 2012. I am working with everyone in my life who helps me with day to day things such as my medications, my finances, my doctors etc… to make this a reality.
I’m worried about not being able to stay with TaeKwon Do, as my instructor said no one up there teaches for our organization, which makes me sad as the past 2 years or so have been a great growing experience for me.
I’m worried and excited about moving away from family, all depends on the family member, and both about some family members.
I have concerns about how everything is going to transfer and how long I will have to wait before I start back up at school and about dealing with a new social worker to do so. But I will not settle for any less than going back for a real degree, which I think is going to be in Linguistics.
Also, I’m going to start writing again in the meantime, if it’s journal entries, creatively, expressively, or just to say I don’t want to write that day, I’m going to write something every day.
I’m going to keep busy with my crafts and with my friends who game etc…
This is it for thoughts for today but there will be much more to come, here and in other places, I’m excited to see what comes as it all comes back to me, practices and habits.
Life is looking exciting again.
SO CUTE
Photos of the day
A child runs amongst some of the 1,600 papier mache pandas set up in Geneva by World Wildlife Fund members to celebrate their 50th anniversary, Sept. 2, 2011. (Sebastien Feval/AFP/Getty Images)
looks so cool close up, and then I step back and realize, it’s taking over my body one bone at a time… cancer… again. This is what it looks like… this is what I’m fighting. Know my opponent and have a better chance at winning, or so I’m told.
